I think that
I don't want to truly care for anybody again.
Today I have been exasperatingly unproductive with my report. Made it a point to come back really early, immediately after school so that I could carry on with it. But I can never do work proper before it's 12am at home. It has to be completely quiet. There should be nobody coming to disturb. No vehicles on the roads with the exception of some stupid idiots revving their engines loud enough for the whole neighbourhood. I have not been able to organise my thoughts today, making it really bad when there is a report to be done. It's like I sort of know what to do, but I can't get my mind to be in a right state and I am messed up over and over again whenever I try to think. And then I get stuck and become unable to continue. Darn it I don't like this.
Well the ache on my back has now evolved and is evenly distributed on both sides, but the pain less intense. On a positive note, I won't be limping already because it used to hurt only on one side.
And after all these projects are due, it's about two weeks left until the exams. I'm quite worried for two modules because one of them I totally understand zero percent. More like I haven't read up on it. And the other, it doesn't have a decent passing rate from past records as mentioned by lecturers themselves. I can't afford to let the GPA slip in fact it has to go even higher and better. Studying will be fun, in a couple week's time. And after exams comes the break, after the break comes the new academic year. Which wouldn't be an easy year there's FYP, should be challenging to achieve distinction!
Well time flies fast. Just unhappy times doesn't.
Although I mentioned that it is late into the night that is more conducive for lecturing myself, it's ironic because I will still fall asleep on the study desk amidst my endeavor on conquering the module and its related jargon. Last semester was different I had aid to help keep me awake. If I don't turn nocturnal a week before exams then that's it I would be pretty much a goner with my results. I was awfully lucky with MST papers, I couldn't take it and I slept and thank god or whatever thing that the questions turned out to be familiar. And come to think of it, MSTs doesn't sound like a thing too distant away it sounds recent.
I would like to develop solid defined toned legs and especially, calves! I think it's damn nice, although many thinks it's scary and freaky looking. This set of calves looks damn awesome. Besides that, nice tan!
But looking at the footwear it supposedly belongs to a female, damn it. Unless this is some kind of masculine cross-dresser, then he's a freak.
And that's it, since this night isn't productive I'll go stock up on sleep time. 12:57 AM Wednesday, January 27, 2010