4th League Sunday, 5th loss.
I've never felt that I put in my everything for the games. I get tired easily, I get demoralized, I am lazy, I don't do what I am supposed to do, be at where I am supposed to be at. I don't have the burst. I find excuses for myself all the time. My ankle has been injured for a month or so, is that supposed to deter from running hard. Come to think of it, I am guilty when I see my teammates putting in so much effort to progress the disc and to make the game better for us. But we cannot rely on them alone.
I want to improve, but everytime on the field I don't seem to be doing things right.
Out of ulty, I have assignments undone left only 2 weeks! But actually I don't know the deadlines. Math, Avionics, Report, CATIA FUCK FUCK FUCK draw aeroplane or some shit with CATIA. Okay just to fill you in it's a computer software which costs about US$30,000 which does 3D drawing and stuff and some guy actually made a Gundam from that software, freak! I wish he was my roommate surely he could do an aeroplane/aerofoil within minutes.
I KNOW SOMEONE WHO WOULD WANK TO THIS!
K yah so I have began listening to music again somehow, limited ones only though. And although I don't see the point of listening to music I don't understand, e.g. Korean songs, I still like some of them. Because I listen probably for the melody? I don't know, some music jargon. I am tempted to get a UM1! I heard it's good, affordable leh. I like sound isolation in-ears. Good things come with hefty price. So I will not consult Eugene or Gabriel because their toys are good and expensive.
And I want to go to Sentosa too my arms, feet and thighs got stupid tanline! The ones on my thighs damn classic.
So my leg looks like that, just that I don't have such super quadriceps. Actually I wouldn't want such disproportioned quads either. Like Eugene said people like that cannot wear skinnies, damn sad you know. I, on the other hand, have un-defined muscles all over my body. In fact I am skinny haha.
K hm today something bad and sad happened it bothers me quite a lot, I can't figure it out but I'm not going to ask you why. But actually, I would like to know why you had to be like that. Ugly as you think it is, you could just bring them home to chuck them aside, I just got them for you since you didn't have any other shoe other than boots to get home in. But well since you think going home in boots is that glamorous then so be it. Since it is an effort gone unappreciated, I will take note I will not dare to try again.
Humans, we shouldn't be cruel. We shouldn't be heartless. We are given a heart for a reason. But well, different humans live differently. I won't ask, won't probe, neither will I ask for anything. I have seen heartlessness, without realisation. What goes around comes around, that's always true. It will come, you don't know when. Perhaps it was my mean character in the past that gave me this retribution. From this chapter of my life, I have learnt quite some bit. It wasn't you who taught me, but you gave me the lessons nevertheless. Different things.
Maybe things will turn out for the better, or worse.
Thanks for taking that ugly side of me, from me. You can keep it.
Well just to share a Korean song which I don't understand as well,
K hm today something bad and sad happened it bothers me quite a lot, I can't figure it out but I'm not going to ask you why. But actually, I would like to know why you had to be like that. Ugly as you think it is, you could just bring them home to chuck them aside, I just got them for you since you didn't have any other shoe other than boots to get home in. But well since you think going home in boots is that glamorous then so be it. Since it is an effort gone unappreciated, I will take note I will not dare to try again.
Humans, we shouldn't be cruel. We shouldn't be heartless. We are given a heart for a reason. But well, different humans live differently. I won't ask, won't probe, neither will I ask for anything. I have seen heartlessness, without realisation. What goes around comes around, that's always true. It will come, you don't know when. Perhaps it was my mean character in the past that gave me this retribution. From this chapter of my life, I have learnt quite some bit. It wasn't you who taught me, but you gave me the lessons nevertheless. Different things.
Maybe things will turn out for the better, or worse.
Thanks for taking that ugly side of me, from me. You can keep it.
Well just to share a Korean song which I don't understand as well,